So much has happened since 2009. A lifetime it seems.
My girls are so big, and now we have a new baby on the way. My husband is teaching and starting new business ventures and next year I will be staying home with our new blessing. I will have to work part-time but just knowing that I won't have to leave our baby everyday is comforting. Knowing that I can nurse this baby as I did my girls brings joy to my heart.
MaKayla is 12. She loves soccer, it is her passion. She tried out for the North Texas Olympic Development program this year. She was one of over 200 girls trying out for 75 spots. She made it! Not only did she make it but at the first training session she was the goalkeeper for the "first" team. I am so proud of her.
Tamara is 10. She loves whatever she is currently interested in. She has always care about animals and has just recently acquired a new pet. After her gerbil died she decided it was time for a rat. So now we have Oreo, the rat, living under our roof. I know it sounds gross and the tail is unappealing but actually the rat is kinda cute. Much more personality than a gerbil that is for sure. Tamara loves him.
Baby #3 is 14 weeks 3 days gestation. :) At our first sonogram our baby was measuring 4 days ahead, based on first day of last cycle. But the doctor is still sticking to a August 12th due date for now. Adam says its just that he has a big "boy" growing in there. He really thinks its a girl though. I personally will be surprised if it's not a boy. This pregnancy has been so different. Way more sick and more often than with the girls. It could be because I am so much older this go round... maybe :) We went to a check-up and heard the heartbeat yesterday and the doctor said it was nice and strong.
We will have our next sonogram in April. That's when we should find out gender.. hopefully the baby will cooperate.
I love this life I have. It can be so hectic, but I really wouldn't want it any other way.
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Untitled
In my very first post I was so excited about teaching in Odessa but nervous about all the newness. It's not much different this year. Even though this is my third year at the same school I find myself nervous and unsure of how it will all play out. I have a new co-worker to share a room and job with, a new counselor, a new diagnostician, a new spec. ed. supervisor and a new speech therapist. Also my mentor has taken a postion downtown... so she will not be there to whine to/seek advice from. She has so much wisdom I'm not done tapping from yet. :(
I'm not sure what all this change means for me. More responsiblities? maybe. I dunno yet. I feel in Limbo. But it's not just that. There is more uncertainty than just this.
Adam is graduating in December. I'm not sure what that means for our family yet, but it's sure to bring about more change.
My girls are growing every moment and I feel their childhood slipping away. I desperately want to cling on to all the memories but they are fading away to quickly. They get drowned out by all the mundane that must be done. I so hate that. I feel it makes me even less of a mother. I aspire not to be distracted, but I feel it is in vain.
I'm not sure what all this change means for me. More responsiblities? maybe. I dunno yet. I feel in Limbo. But it's not just that. There is more uncertainty than just this.
Adam is graduating in December. I'm not sure what that means for our family yet, but it's sure to bring about more change.
My girls are growing every moment and I feel their childhood slipping away. I desperately want to cling on to all the memories but they are fading away to quickly. They get drowned out by all the mundane that must be done. I so hate that. I feel it makes me even less of a mother. I aspire not to be distracted, but I feel it is in vain.
Monday, June 9, 2008
Tamara-isms
Both of my daughters are very intelligent and quick witted. I've always said they get their wittiness from their dad.
Some of the latest from Tamara:
Lately the girls have been arguing more than usual. So Adam and I have laid down some ground rules. #1 They are not to argue and #2 We will give them one warning before consequences are given (Because as Tamara mentioned, what if I don't know that I'm arguing). So a warning is given until they understand completely what does and does not consitute as arguing. (By the way, I think they have a good concept of this but whatever... benefit of the doubt.)
So Tamara and I are walking through a party store with MaKayla and Tammie. Tamara sees these Elvis Presley playing cards that she just has to have. Tamara loves Elvis. She gets this from her mom. In fact when Tamara lists her boyfriends... Elvis is known as her dead boyfriend. Not sure if that is healthy. Anyway, she asks for them and I tell her that she doesn't need them... then the arguing begins. I tell her calmly that this is her one warning that she is arguing with me. After this comment she lets out a very exaggereated sigh and her face turns from lawyer to imprisoned abandoned puppy at a shelter. She's crushed that the conquest for the Elvis Presley cards has just officially come to an end. So I walk toward the check out counter stopping to browse at a display and Tamara comes up to me and says, "Mom, what exactly would be the consequences." You can tell that she really wants these stinkin' Elvis cards and that she would like to weigh in on the pros and cons because it just might be worth the consequences to argue her point a little further in the hopes that I just might give in. I reply a spankin'. To which she say "Or grounding?" and I say maybe. At this point we are leaving the store and she chooses not to continue our previous discussion. I guess she didn't think the cards were worth. But what she doesn't know is that Nana Santa has already purchased some for her. She is too smart. I don't know what I'm going to do with her when she is a teenager.
When I asked her to clean her room the other day and was going through the house handing her stuff that belonged in her room she began to get very upset. She said that she was the only one that had to clean, that MaKayla didn't. (MaKayla's room just happenend to look decent on this particular day.) Tamara proceeded to tell me that she felt like a pack-mule. A pack-mule! Where the heck does she get this stuff from?
Some of the latest from Tamara:
Lately the girls have been arguing more than usual. So Adam and I have laid down some ground rules. #1 They are not to argue and #2 We will give them one warning before consequences are given (Because as Tamara mentioned, what if I don't know that I'm arguing). So a warning is given until they understand completely what does and does not consitute as arguing. (By the way, I think they have a good concept of this but whatever... benefit of the doubt.)
So Tamara and I are walking through a party store with MaKayla and Tammie. Tamara sees these Elvis Presley playing cards that she just has to have. Tamara loves Elvis. She gets this from her mom. In fact when Tamara lists her boyfriends... Elvis is known as her dead boyfriend. Not sure if that is healthy. Anyway, she asks for them and I tell her that she doesn't need them... then the arguing begins. I tell her calmly that this is her one warning that she is arguing with me. After this comment she lets out a very exaggereated sigh and her face turns from lawyer to imprisoned abandoned puppy at a shelter. She's crushed that the conquest for the Elvis Presley cards has just officially come to an end. So I walk toward the check out counter stopping to browse at a display and Tamara comes up to me and says, "Mom, what exactly would be the consequences." You can tell that she really wants these stinkin' Elvis cards and that she would like to weigh in on the pros and cons because it just might be worth the consequences to argue her point a little further in the hopes that I just might give in. I reply a spankin'. To which she say "Or grounding?" and I say maybe. At this point we are leaving the store and she chooses not to continue our previous discussion. I guess she didn't think the cards were worth. But what she doesn't know is that Nana Santa has already purchased some for her. She is too smart. I don't know what I'm going to do with her when she is a teenager.
When I asked her to clean her room the other day and was going through the house handing her stuff that belonged in her room she began to get very upset. She said that she was the only one that had to clean, that MaKayla didn't. (MaKayla's room just happenend to look decent on this particular day.) Tamara proceeded to tell me that she felt like a pack-mule. A pack-mule! Where the heck does she get this stuff from?
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
I wonder...
What is the difference in a cog and a sprocket? (Anyone remember the "Jetson's")
Why when you abbreviate inch you put a period on the end and when you abbreviate feet there is no period. (according to the 6th grade grammar text)
Why am I so inconsistent on blogging? (Well I actually have a list of reasons for this one but I don't want to bore you.)
Why when you abbreviate inch you put a period on the end and when you abbreviate feet there is no period. (according to the 6th grade grammar text)
Why am I so inconsistent on blogging? (Well I actually have a list of reasons for this one but I don't want to bore you.)
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
if you give a mouse a cookie...
Are you familiar with this book?
This is what it is like at my house lately.
If your wife has christmas/birthday money she will want to buy new kitchen floors,
When you get new kitchen floors, you'll think you need a new refrigerator,
If you get a new refrigerator, you'll need a new stove to match,
Once the appliances have been replaced you'll want to redecorate,
before you can redecorate you'll need to take down the old border.
If you take down the old border you'll need to repaint.
(old paint doesn't go to ceiling and we don't have that paint anymore)
If you repaint, you'll want to paint the ceiling also.
If your going to paint the ceiling you'll need to put a beam or divider of some sort up between to kitchen and the rest of the house or you'll end having to paint the ceiling in three other rooms.
If your putting up beams you might as well replace the ugly ceiling fan in the kitchen as well because by now everything else is so pretty that the ugly ceiling fan is detracting from it all.
I'm sure you get the point.
These can't all be accomplished in the near future, as money and time will not allow. But at least I have a plan right. Adam would like to add new microwave to the list, I'm holding him off.
I'm so excited! Our new refrigerator arrived today. It's the first new appliance that Adam and I have ever purchased. It's so nice, clean, and shiny!
I promise that pictures are coming. I have already taken some I just need to download them to the computer and post. So hang in there.
This is what it is like at my house lately.
If your wife has christmas/birthday money she will want to buy new kitchen floors,
When you get new kitchen floors, you'll think you need a new refrigerator,
If you get a new refrigerator, you'll need a new stove to match,
Once the appliances have been replaced you'll want to redecorate,
before you can redecorate you'll need to take down the old border.
If you take down the old border you'll need to repaint.
(old paint doesn't go to ceiling and we don't have that paint anymore)
If you repaint, you'll want to paint the ceiling also.
If your going to paint the ceiling you'll need to put a beam or divider of some sort up between to kitchen and the rest of the house or you'll end having to paint the ceiling in three other rooms.
If your putting up beams you might as well replace the ugly ceiling fan in the kitchen as well because by now everything else is so pretty that the ugly ceiling fan is detracting from it all.
I'm sure you get the point.
These can't all be accomplished in the near future, as money and time will not allow. But at least I have a plan right. Adam would like to add new microwave to the list, I'm holding him off.
I'm so excited! Our new refrigerator arrived today. It's the first new appliance that Adam and I have ever purchased. It's so nice, clean, and shiny!
I promise that pictures are coming. I have already taken some I just need to download them to the computer and post. So hang in there.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
lies
I'm saddened. When the girls were smaller and before school their lives revolved around only what Adam and I wanted them to be exposed to. We controlled the environment. That is not so any more.
Tamara has a friend at school who we will call J. Well J. and Tamara are really good friends and it seems from what she tells me that they talk and play together quite often. This in itself is not a bad thing. It starts to become complicated when you know that J. is not a christian. Or should I say his parents are not Christians.
He has told Tamara before that all churches except for his are mean. I asked her if her church was mean and of course she said no and I asked her if she told him that. She said that she did. But he told her again that all other churches were mean. She said,"Well mine ain't." (I can totally see Tamara saying that matter-of-factly to this little boy with a grin on her face.)
Well now it is going beyond other churches are mean. Last night I was tucking Tamara in bed. We said our prayers, I sang to her and then she started reflecting on the day. (I don't know if the reflecting is her way of processing the day or a way of stalling bedtime or perhaps both.)
So she says," J. said to not pledge the flag and all the animals will be nice to you, even the sharks won't bite you."
What?!? (I'm thinking this in my head) I asked her to repeat what she said again because I hadn't quite processed. Once I figured it out I asked her if J. said the pledge of allegiance. He doesn't. I asked her if he didn't "pledge the flag" so all the animals would be nice to him. She said that she guessed so. I told her that we believed in doing the pledge of allegience and that pledging would not make the animals like her less.
She started talking about something else but in my mind I could not let this go. This little boy was telling lies to my child. Of course he was probably just passing on the lies he had been told but still, I don't want Tamara to think these things are true and since he is not being raised as a Christian his lies will inevitably become more damaging.
So Tamara is still reflecting and I change the subject back to J. and what he had said. But now after reflecting a little on my own I had come up with some reasoning to help Tamara gain some perspective. I told her first that it was a lie that the animals would like her if she didn't pledge the flag. J. had told her that even the sharks would not bite her. I told her that was a lie. (I did bring up that J. probably didn't know that it was a lie, and that someone had probably told him that lie too.)
I think Tamara though it would be cool if the sharks didn't bite her because she really likes sharks and knows that they can be very dangerous. She told me that she said only one of the pledges at school but not both of them. (She was believing J.!)
So I say to her, lets pretend that you are swimming with the sharks. How do they know if you pledge the flag or not? Are the sharks going to ask you if you pledge the flag before they decide to bite you? To which the answer was of course not, sharks don't talk! How would the sharks or any animal for that matter know whether or not you pledge to the flag.
With these two questions I get this quirky little grin that she does when she is pondering on something that she thinks is silly. (So I knew I had made sense to her.) I know that I may be overreacting. But I don't want the girls to believe these crazy lies.
Lord I pray that the truth always reveals itself to my children. Please place a hedge of protection around my girls not only physically but I pray for your protection of their minds and spirit. Amen.
Tamara has a friend at school who we will call J. Well J. and Tamara are really good friends and it seems from what she tells me that they talk and play together quite often. This in itself is not a bad thing. It starts to become complicated when you know that J. is not a christian. Or should I say his parents are not Christians.
He has told Tamara before that all churches except for his are mean. I asked her if her church was mean and of course she said no and I asked her if she told him that. She said that she did. But he told her again that all other churches were mean. She said,"Well mine ain't." (I can totally see Tamara saying that matter-of-factly to this little boy with a grin on her face.)
Well now it is going beyond other churches are mean. Last night I was tucking Tamara in bed. We said our prayers, I sang to her and then she started reflecting on the day. (I don't know if the reflecting is her way of processing the day or a way of stalling bedtime or perhaps both.)
So she says," J. said to not pledge the flag and all the animals will be nice to you, even the sharks won't bite you."
What?!? (I'm thinking this in my head) I asked her to repeat what she said again because I hadn't quite processed. Once I figured it out I asked her if J. said the pledge of allegiance. He doesn't. I asked her if he didn't "pledge the flag" so all the animals would be nice to him. She said that she guessed so. I told her that we believed in doing the pledge of allegience and that pledging would not make the animals like her less.
She started talking about something else but in my mind I could not let this go. This little boy was telling lies to my child. Of course he was probably just passing on the lies he had been told but still, I don't want Tamara to think these things are true and since he is not being raised as a Christian his lies will inevitably become more damaging.
So Tamara is still reflecting and I change the subject back to J. and what he had said. But now after reflecting a little on my own I had come up with some reasoning to help Tamara gain some perspective. I told her first that it was a lie that the animals would like her if she didn't pledge the flag. J. had told her that even the sharks would not bite her. I told her that was a lie. (I did bring up that J. probably didn't know that it was a lie, and that someone had probably told him that lie too.)
I think Tamara though it would be cool if the sharks didn't bite her because she really likes sharks and knows that they can be very dangerous. She told me that she said only one of the pledges at school but not both of them. (She was believing J.!)
So I say to her, lets pretend that you are swimming with the sharks. How do they know if you pledge the flag or not? Are the sharks going to ask you if you pledge the flag before they decide to bite you? To which the answer was of course not, sharks don't talk! How would the sharks or any animal for that matter know whether or not you pledge to the flag.
With these two questions I get this quirky little grin that she does when she is pondering on something that she thinks is silly. (So I knew I had made sense to her.) I know that I may be overreacting. But I don't want the girls to believe these crazy lies.
Lord I pray that the truth always reveals itself to my children. Please place a hedge of protection around my girls not only physically but I pray for your protection of their minds and spirit. Amen.
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
i'm raising a weed...
Everyone has been commenting on how tall MaKayla looks. I know she has been growing but I guess since I see her everyday the growth isn't as obvious to me. Well Adam decided to measure the girls the other day. We have a place on Tamara's closet door frame where we have been measuring them for years. (I'm going to have to tear apart the door frame if we ever move so I can keep this record of growth.)
I hear Adam muttering something down the hallway, all I catch is "disturbing discovery." He had already marked their new height but was getting the tape measure to write their actual height by the new marks.
Are you ready for this? MaKayla has grown an inch and a half in about three months. Tamara has grown a half inch. Since January of last year to now MaKayla has grown a total of 6 inches. Yes...six inches in a year. Well all the sudden it makes more sense about why she complains of pains from time to time and it also explains the growing appetite. Tamara's growth isn't as drastic right now but I imagine she'll hit a growth spurt of her own before I know it. But I'm definitely not in any hurry for that to happen yet. I can only handle one "disturbing discovery" at a time.
I hear Adam muttering something down the hallway, all I catch is "disturbing discovery." He had already marked their new height but was getting the tape measure to write their actual height by the new marks.
Are you ready for this? MaKayla has grown an inch and a half in about three months. Tamara has grown a half inch. Since January of last year to now MaKayla has grown a total of 6 inches. Yes...six inches in a year. Well all the sudden it makes more sense about why she complains of pains from time to time and it also explains the growing appetite. Tamara's growth isn't as drastic right now but I imagine she'll hit a growth spurt of her own before I know it. But I'm definitely not in any hurry for that to happen yet. I can only handle one "disturbing discovery" at a time.
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